Authentically Nita

Well, as most people already know, I'm engaged. We haven't set a date yet (it's my fault), I'm not very excited because I still have some fears. I have all these things running through my head. It's a big step and I don't know how people just rush into marriage without thinking twice. Don't think that I don't love my boyfriend, because I do. Here are some of the things that I worry about: Having a whole life with someone else. A life that could easily be taken away if he decides he just doesn't want to be with me anymore. (Or if he cheats on me, cheating equals the end of the relationship). I don't know anyone whose 1st marriage didn't end in divorce. If I don't get married, I won't have to worry about getting divorced. (All of the women in my family have been divorced, some more than once. My mom was married twice & she is divorced. Same with my grandma. My dad was married three time.) Divorce is expensive. I have a serio

"You can never get ahead of anyone, if you're always trying to get even" A friend of mine has an ex who is going through all kinds of extremes to get revenge. Sometimes p eople will do anything to get a little payback. People will lie, make false claims in court, destroy property, try to sleep with their ex to ruin the ex's current relationship, keep a man from his children, spread rumors, post blogs on Myspace about a person, or post pics of them online and use various other methods to get revenge...I know people that have done some of these things. When someone does you wrong, retaliation just seems like a good idea. The Bride's personal vendetta in the movie " Kill Bill " displayed revenge in the most glorifying way that I've ever seen it displayed. She goes on a revenge fueled quest to kill every member of an assassination team that betrayed her. The end of volume two is the best part. She kills Bill and unites with her daughter. It's beaut

Happiness. How do you find it? How do you define it? Does it really exist? Do you find it within yourself? If you are at peace with yourself, does that make you happy? Are you happy with your career, relationship, marital status or home? How does the way you feel about those things effect whether or not you are generally a happy person? I found out recently that there is actually a science to happiness. It ties into the study of human behavior. I found it pretty interesting. Especially since right now I'm trying to figure out some things in my life and I've been feeling a little down. I also searched Happiness on Google and found out that I'm not the only person out there asking these type of questions. Apparently a lot of people want to know why they are not Happy and how they can find happiness.